The morning sun rained down heat and light through the window. I just wanted to wrap myself up and go to sleep. I didn’t want to face the day today. I kinda of knew what was going to happen and I wanted to avoid it. There was a hollowness in my heart, and nothing, and no one could fill that.
The best thing I could do was get up and dive into work. So, that’s what I did. I rolled off my bed and started getting ready for work. My father was already awake. He sullen and silent as he read the paper. An early retirement meant that he had no work to go to. A quick breakfast later and I mutter a goodbye as I left home.
I saw the sorry and pity looks that were directed towards me. Some even offered sympathy. Everything was a dream. I sat at my desk and dived into work.
It seemed like time and work could not even last forever and I had to return home. Even though dad was there, it felt empty.
“Your mother called today”, my father said.
That was not possible, but I understood where my father was coming from, at least I thought I understood where he was coming from.
I just nodded again and acknowledged my father’s statement.
***
I returned from work again. My father still had a sullen look on his face. As days passed, his face looked more sunken too. “Your mother called”, he said.
This again, I decided to go along. “What did she say?”
“Nothing”.
I nodded my head in acknowledgement.
I would give anything to meet my mother. Those were my last thoughts before I went to sleep.
***
“Your mother talks to me sometimes over the phone. She said that she loves you very much.”
“I know dad, you don’t have to tell me. I love mom too, no matter what.”
He stared at me for a moment, before burying his head in a novel.
***
It was a Sunday, so I was lazing at home. Father was asleep, afternoon nap. His phone began ringing. I looked at the screen. The impossible was happening, ‘Sharon’, my mother’s name flashed on the screen.
Curiously, I picked up the called.
“Mom….” I glanced around, my father was not in sight, “Mom, mom”, I spoke inside the speaker.
I wanted to hear her voice. “I’ve not heard your voice for long, Mom”.
The eternal silence.
“You know I’ve been missing you too mom”.
“Works been fine. They’ve given more responsibility than before.”
“Yes, yes, I’ll ask them for a raise.”
The conversation went on and on, from work to friends to life.
Finally, I put the phone down.
My dad had woken up from his afternoon nap. “Who was that?”
“Mom”, I answered.
You know what the funny part was? My mother was dead.
